Good morning and happy sunday to u all, anytime i woke up in the morning i am always angry and frustrated, maybe bcos i have alot on my mind, dis has been going on for a very longtime now, i cant even take good care of myself anymore as de woman dat i am and am getting old bco of dis, i always think about not having a house in nigerian yet, I am still thinking about my stand here in Europe, i dont have a place of my own even de white man am living with is full of complains, he has stroke but he can waik and taik normal but half of his brain in damaged and one of his hand is bend and very dirty, am here at of what to do and am not comfortable at all, am here bcos no place to stay and it hurts me so much dis is not de kind of life i wish for myself, its like am all alone in dis world, someone dat i know b4 dat stays in Austria, i have been begging her to help me to come dere so she can show me de way, but she keep telling me one story to de other, black people can never show u de way, never! So greedy especially girls, i think am getting depressed bcos no one to console me except my beautiful family back home even if money is not coming, dey have been very helpful even when i know dat dey are back home suffery, oh how do i get all dis wahala at of my mind so i dont die of thinkness, abroad is very very hard, u are on ur own.plz is there anything i can do to free my mind and forget my worries bcos am so tired of this kind of life and sadness, am tired of being angry everyday but i just cant find happiness, no matter how i try to be but de happiness is not coming