Good morning to everyone in the house, my name is fatima am 27yrs old girl and I have italian document but due to no job in Italy and the hardship I relocate to Holland and now I am currently staying with one white man and anytime he goes to work I will be at home alone till evening, I have been in Europe for 7yrs now and I manage to save 2million naira in my account in Nigeria ,when I came to Europe 7yrs ago tins were going on well until 3yrs ago, tins fall apart, I don't have money anymore to send, I can't remember the last time I sent money back home for them to eat not to taik of putting money in my account , life is not important to me anymore and I don't know if it's depression ,even de white man am currently living with is getting tired of me bcos of my sadness and attitude,today is making it one week since i came to holland ,i dont want to do prostitite anymore even if i did dat useless work back den when i was new in europe , am in holland now but u cant work if u dont have dere papers here,its like dat in any part of europe,u need to have papers in any country u are staying before u can work, i dont have friends and de only call i recieve is Nigeria call, i came from a very good family dat understand ,dey are my back bone, dey encourage me and so on and dey dont care about money, all dey want is my happiness but atlease i have to use my brain and make dem comfortable even if dey dont ask , if not for free encouragement I would have been dead by now , maybe I would have committed suicide long ago, am always sad and unhappy ,its like my life is now built on sadness and thinkness ,whenever am eating i feel sad,i even faulse myself to eat , I don't take care of myself infact am even getting old ,older Dan my age, my mind keep telling me to die die die, am currently crying as I am writing dis confession, if I lie let me sleep and never wake up ,am not lying ,am crying bcos notin intereste me anymore ,even if I try so hard to be happy is won't work ,plz i beg u guys in de name of God, help a sister with a word of advice or what to do ,am not asking for money or anything ,all I want is an advice and counselling if dat is de right word to use ,am just so tired of dis life and everything ,I came from a poor background and I want to make dem proud but it's just like I don't have a life anymore ,my brothers and sister plz help me with ur word of advice ...thanks and God bless.