I used to find it very difficult to love or relate with someone for long, whenever I try to build something out of d attraction I feel for a guy, nothing comes out of it. immediately I have sex with them, I just want to hide, I don't want to have anything to do with them again. I just hate them for no reason, not bcos d sex wasn't good. it just happens. Sometime in March, I met a guy on social network, for about a month we were going on n off, then we started chatting regular, I jxt thought, I would forget him soon.we met in person sometime in July, n to make things worst, we had sex the same day we met, it wasn't planned, spontaneous shii*. Things got awkward bt after some weeks we were cool. N since then, we chat everyday, talk regularly, pay each other long weekend visits, I have met his friends, some of his colleagues, his siblings etc. He has never done anything to hurt, apaz little arguments btw us. He travelled for an event n called me earlier today dat his batt is almost dead. I haven't heard anything from him for hours n I can't bliv I feel like crying. bt lying on my bed now, i'm so scared of this feelings I have for this guy. that different questions have been going thru my mind. He claimed he loves me, what if he doesn't love me as much as he claims, what if he gets tired of me like I got tired of those guys? i'm soo worried , my brain is telling me to stop d relationship before I get hurt....*sigh