Crying like rain.....loneliness is making me think of suicide, I live in a village with my boyfriend somewhere in Italy, I have been here for 3yrs, i don't have any friends at all, de village were we live dere are no too much blacks, only de few blacks dat lives here are all boys 2boys which is also my boyfriend's friends but me I have no body to taik to or gist with, all I do is go to work come back, watch movie eat and sleep, dats all, I even feel bored around my boyfriend maybe bcos I see him everyday, he has someone dat he can play or gist with in dis village but me I have non, on easter day, I was on my bed all day and he was on de sitting room with his friend, he is a good guy tho but what am trying to say is dat, am so so so ***** ing bored, my life is meaningless, am dying inside of me bcos dis idleness is making me going insane, I cried sometimes and am so tired of dis life and am tired of living like dis.... I don't even know what else to do