Good day everyone and happy new year to u all, my heart is bleeding, we all know that most European Country there is no job especially when u don't have document, am trying to survive and save money both here and Africa bcos I came from a poor family, there is no way I can survive without doing prostitution, I hate the job with passion both I can't just seat and crossed my hands hoping dat manner will fall from heaven, I have to do what i have to do to survive, I cried sometimes because things are no right and I need to start from some were but my boyfriend (Nigeria guy) is always shooking me about the work I do (prostitution) he doesn't have anything to offer me bcos he is not rich and he also came here to look for a better life like me, sometimes I give him little money, to be honest, I will not call it money bcos dats just(change) but he doesn't ask me for money like dat, he is not like some black men that keep asking there girlfriend for money de way most of our men does ,he too needs help like me and I believe if he sees a white or black girl dat can help him he will do worst than me bcos he also came from a poor family , de tin is dat, he is always angry over what I do and call me names even when he knows my situation, I don't know if it's bcos I don't give him money like de way other girls dat do dis work spend on their boyfriend, he told me yesterday dat any girl dat do dis work dat their boyfriend wear de best clothes and so on yet he doesn't complain but all I do is to make him shout. I don't make him shout, he is the one complaining all de time(for example) anytime I went to see a white man in his house, my boyfriend complains, always bitter, expecally when I told him we can't talk now dat when am out of here I will call him, he will get angry and said, he is not importand to me, dat I have feelings for de white man and so on, I always told him dat it's all about de money yet he doesn't want to understand with me always complaing , he doesn't want me to have anything to do with white men even to do dis job, how does he want me to survive without doing what am doing, he doesn't have money or any help to give to me yet he complains a lot over it, he loves me because of de way he treats me and many more whenever we are together, even if I have nothing to offer he still treats me nice unlike some guys here in Europe , when u are doing dis stupid job ,de day u will not give dem money dey change instantly, de first day I told my boyfriend dat I want to start doing dis job, he was really angry and explained how he feel over dis job and I told him is all about de money and I told him it's just for a short time and we concluded de discussion but now he is always angry and bitter, especially whenever am with a white man, I keep explaining everyday and am really tired of repeating myself all de time yet he still complains over and over again, dis tin is ruining our relationship, I love him very much and I really want to be with him, I tried to end de relationship but bcos of de love I have for him, it's difficult, even him ,he loves me but I don't just what else to do, he told me yesterday dat he is going to watch me eat my cake and still have it, am confused, I don't like dis work either bcos it can destroy u both emotionally and otherwise but what to do?, I hate my life sometimes I feel like commiting suicide, am so tired of everything, my family are back home suffering and I am only trying to make things right here but my boyfriend is making me feel bad as if I am committing de worst sin on earth, plz my brothers and sister , how do I go about dis bcos am confused bcos I don't want dis relationship to end just like dis, dis guy always give me hope, confidence and many more both in and out and I don't want dis relationship to end ,biko help. Thanks