I cannot get over my ex.
I met him when I was 19 n he was 30, On my 20th birthday, he asked if I could marry him if he had a ring, without thinking, I told him he was too old n that my parents will kill me if I think about marriage. He started dating someone else, when I found out I cried my eyes out and broke up with him. He was my first and I was hurt. He got married before my 22nd birthday, I started dating another guy, until we met again at a conference and we kind of picked up from where we stopped, and we continued after the conference. After each time we are together I feel bad, many times I cry coz I know it is wrong, I told him and we stopped doing it, unfortunately I lost my boyfriend along the way and more importantly I lost God's presence in my life. I am financially ok, I habe a good job bt I am not happy