I wake up every morning wishing someone would tell me that the woman who i call my mother was infact not my mother but my step mother, that way it would be a lot easier to accept or understand why she doesnt miss an oppurtunity to tell me how useless,shameless, stupid i am and how she is ashamed of me. She calls me all kinds of names including a prostitute. She says i am fat and she is ashamed of me in everyway and how she hates me. She is a christian and goes to church frequently and prays. I ask myself how someone who is recognised in the church would put me through all this pain constantly. Infact, she has made me loose interest in going to church. She has also made me loose confidence in myself, when i think of all the insults she throws at me at every slight oppurtunity.. I would leave the house if only i had some where else to go cause i cant take it anymore and am stuck to her insults. I dont know if its right to say i hate her but i do. Plsss help me i dont know what else to do. I swear nothing here i said is an exaggeration or lie. Help me am loosing it thats if i havent even lost it.