I'm regretting my life, crying is now my daily food, how can i allow dis to happon to me, my boyfriend dat i have been dating for 7years is more than a gold, his plan is to marry me but i keep telling him not now, even when i was pregnant for him he begged me not to abort it but i did, was always acting dat I'm not ready despite the way he treats me, so nicely and all those while we where dating, he never change, always desame nice guy from the beginning to the end, dis guy loves me so much and i love him also, i was not flirting. I was not following men was just with him, guys do approached me but i never give any of them attention we both were into ourselves, until i met another guy, den my attitude towards my longtime relationship changes, i started treating him bad bcos of dis new guy, i even quite de relationship and broke his heart and move to the new guy, we have been dating for going to 3years, dis guy is notin but headache, i don't really know how to classify him, he is so proud, feel too big even when he has notin, infact i love him but his attitude is not good, always wanting me to beg him even if he is the one dat offended me, he is always claiming right never appologise, i saw all dis tins but bcos of de love i have for him i stayed, any little quarrel, he will be telling me to leave his life but was too scared to move on i will still beg him den we will settle, now I'm 5months pregnant, he is not around me, he is in another city, he was de one dat told me to keep de pregnancy and now I'm alone, lonely and frustrated, all by myself, he is not balance, don't have money and I'm not even thinking about de fact dat he doesn't have money but his attitude is frustrating me, one time he even said b4 de pregnancy came up he has been telling me to live him alone but i refuse, always acting up, he is the type dat doesn't care if u are dying or not,5days ago i told him dat i was not feeling fine and he said, why, his mother was once pregnant, her sister was once pregnant, are mine going to give birth to Jesus and i told him dat I'm not surprice dat irresponsible guys always sound like dat and he insulted me and told me dat it's bcos he called me dat is why I'm having de mouth to insult him and he cut of de call and since den he doesn't pick my calls, i even write msg to appologise, he always reject my calls and all dat, I'm really tired, now dat I'm pregnant its just like my eyes have opened and i can now see clearly, I'm regretting, i should have just summon courage and move on when i was not pregnant den, just look at me now, I'm really tired, he doesn't care, I'm really regretting, his attitude is not de kind i want in a man, bcos of him i left my gold and now I'm in pain, i just can't stop thinking and crying, it hurt so much, plz what will i do? I'm now even worst dan a single mother, I'm heart broken and frustrated, how do i summon courage and move on with a single mother, dis is not how i planned my life before my God, just can't stop crying