I am undergoing an emotional struggle and I hope maybe your insights might able to give me some peace in mind.

I do apologize for the long email, I think you would judge me if I wasn’t clear about this situation.

Recently, I met a guy on Tinder, who I thought was 27 years old and single, and he happened to visit my neck of town for a new job. I went on a few dates with him and then he flew back to wherever he’s from. When he went home I was sad because he was a great company and I’ve never met someone I am so in-tune with…and I date a lot of men. It was the first time I am enjoying the experience without expecting any reciprocation of commitment from the other party.

Though, I was sad, I thought it was just a one-time thing, so I decided to be friends with him. I thought we could be just friends, if anything, since it could be a good thing knowing more people around the states. As I continued my communication with him, he then confessed to me that he was separated with kids and was wondering what are my thoughts of his baggage? He then asked me if I would be his girl. LOL! And, the next thing he told me was that he was flying back to my town that coming weekend and it was going to be a one way ticket for him, since he doesn’t think it was working out for his wife and him.

Mind you, I thought this guy was crazy and that he was joking. Who the heck would book a one way ticket to live somewhere where he knows no one to be with a girl he just met and hung out with for one week? I even told him that what he’s experiencing with me is just an infatuation so he should go home and work things out with his wife.

He then called me on that weekend and said he was at the airport. You should have seen my face, I was in shock. Of course, I picked him up and let him stay at my place over the weekend and then I told him that he needs to find his own place to stay because I have never let anyone reside over my place for more than 2 days. He spent 2 weeks here. He was hotel hoping since he hadn’t found the perfect place to stay. I even helped him with the search, but part of me felt like he wasn’t really invested in finding a permanent place to stay here. I still felt like he was just acting based on his feelings of infatuation, and he would leave very soon. And, I didn’t ask him about his situation because I didn’t want to be involved in the drama, and, that he would tell me on his own if he trusted me.

After 2 weeks passed, he told me he was thinking of going back home. I knew this day would come, but I wasn’t angry or anything, even though I should have been considering he tried to lead me on with all his crazy stuff. I told him that it was nice knowing him and that he shouldn’t continue talking to me anymore since what he’s doing is hurtful. He agreed and asked if I wanted to meet up and spend some time together before he left. I said yes, and upon meeting him, he showed me pictures with his kids. He shared that things with his wife was very strained, but was still complicated since he got her pregnant with the 3rd child 6 months ago.

To be honest with you, after learning that piece of information, I told him to don’t come back and he should focus on his kids and his pregnant wife as I never thought he should have left his family for someone he barely knew, and that he shouldn’t cheat on his wife again. He asked me to be his life-long friend and I said that as much as I would want to be in his life, I can’t. We just have too much chemistry together to be just friends. And, that having any type of relationship with me will only hinder his reconciliation process with his wife. Despite how sad I felt, I have never expected such a man to leave his family. I have yet to tell you how I felt about this man, I feel like he was my soul-mate, someone who finishes my sentences and knows exactly what I am thinking. It just feels right and I was really one hundred percent of myself when I was with this guy. So, he left and all I’ve d