Good morning pals, i'm dying in silence.I cannot talk to a friend, his parents or my parents.Its this same man that I cried the whole of last year for my parents to accept our marriage which they did finally and now im almost like is this him? I only survived yesterday by his grace, we were both home yesterday and I had headache throughout yesterday so we decided to go shopping so we could come home and cook something so I could eat and take medication.We were working together happily in the kitchen not until he asked me to stair the food on fire while I was seated knowing fully well that it really was not necessary to stair at that moment so I said lets wait a little not knowing I was inviting the devil into the house that evening.He went straight to the living room and was watching movie because he was angry. Truely I was amazed cuz I didnt see any scene that had brought up the anger.I stayed in the kitchen and continued doing my stuffs and wanting to bring us back to mood, i decided to start a discussion while I was working and hell no all I got in response was all sort of insults on earth.I stayed quiet, prepared the meal, took to the table and we ate after which I went to bed after some time to avoid his problems because I know him too well and sitting with him was not the best to do. While sleeping, I felt hands caressing my body after sometime only to realize he was the one, being angry of course I asked him to leave me alone given that I still had headache and had not taken any medication so I needed to rest.He kept on insisting and using force which I shouted at him and he got up, dressed up and wanted to go out.It was past midnight then and that is a man i call my husband wanting to go out to God knows where at that time of the night.I am not prepared to get infected by any man so I had to stop him for with the anger he claimed to have he could probably do anything out there at that night. I had the beating of my life for trying to stop him.He hit me continuously on my head almost all through the night after which he went to bed.In pain and tears, I had nose bleeding but he diidnt care.I cried and cleaned up and also went to bed but couldnt sleep because im still wondering if he is the same man I cried to marry.Up to now that im writing I have not slept one bit and have been in tears since midnight.This is not the first time he is beating me.Truely I don't want to take it to our families to avoid intrusion in our marriage but I need sincere advice, infact I need to talk to someone who can calm down my state of mind bc right now i can die truely I can. Please pals what do you think I can do to make this man the same person I got married to last year and how can I stop him from beating me always. We live abroad but despite all the beatings I have never attempted to call the police but I may die someday silently bc he beats me like im a snake.Help a friend in pain, what do I really need to do? im crying right now and my head feeling like it can explode.Thank you