i use to be a super blessed person, everything i wanted , i always achieved.Life wasn't the greatest dealing with the death of my mother at 13.Yet i still had my gifts of being strong and being able to move on with life,and do my best.I always had good intentions ,for myself and other people.I am a very kind person who is very cautious of my sins. i repent daily even when i judge people.


It all started in university.My first year of university i did brilliant,didn't fail any classes Sept one ,but i passed it when i took it in the summer.My troubles started when i started school in fall, i was doing great in the beginning,but as soon as it was November came found myself failing everything ,even when i tried my hardest.strange things like sudden headaches ,panic attacks ,late/broken buses,messed up computer,illnesses ,all came at once anytime i wanted to do my work and progress.I cared so much about school that i went for help,the help that i got from my school was terrible,they were ignorant to my situation and could not understand what i was going through.I even went to my doctor,but he just labelled it as a mental illness,but is hesitant to get me further help,plus therapy was $ and i was broke.Eventually summer came and i still had the same problem,.Without any help to know what my problem was, i had to fight myself and i was angry at myself daily.Everything i did resulted with bad news, frds ,family,school,love and job.I tried to be positive ,but i am starting to believe God took my blessings away from me ,because he is mad at me. I have become a victim to almost everything i do.

I am not progressing in anything at all, i often feel my soul is dying ,because my days are dark,this has been happening for almost two years ,now and my situations are getting worse. i have been to church , I've been prayed for,but nothing good is happening.No doors are opening for me, am losing my motivation and determination. God did not promise us that there will be no problems in our life but he did promise us a safe landing.

but , i have no desire to fight anymore.