‎"Should I open the door again????

My husband and I have been married for almost 2 years, been together for 2 1/2. He was my best friend but once we got married the verbal abuse began. He would talk down to me, lie to me and walk out on me telling me he'd divorce me over and over again. My husband is in the military and a little over a year ago it was time for us to move, thousands of miles away from my friends and family. I had no support system anymore and from there on the verbal abuse got really bad. He degraded me on a daily basis telling me how stupid I am and that I'm a ***** ing bitch that doesn't know when to shut the ***** up. At times he even called my daughters bitches and threatened to "slap the shit out of them". He made comments towards me at times that if he were to face me without someone else being there he'd hurt me but that never happened. In march he moved out but we were still in touch. In may he tried committing suicide and threatened to beat me with a baseball bat. That's when I got a restraining order and filed for separation. My husband broke the no contact order several times but never to threaten me. He contacted my brother asking him to please tell me that he was sorry but my brother was trying to protect me so I didnt find out about that until weeks later. He also texted me the same thing but I ***** d the msgs and got a new phone number. Everything was set up. I had a place to go with my kids and the Army was going to pay for our move. The day before my attorney filed the petition with the court for me to leave the state my husband contacted a former friend of mine again saying how sorry he is and how he wants his family back. I wanted to believe him and gave him another chance. For the past two month despite the fact that there was a civilian as well as a military protection order in affect the whole time, my husband has been coming by the house spending time with me and the kids and everything went great minus one or two incidents a few days after we had started talking again where he was yelling at cussing at me. We had a court hearing three weeks ago to drop the protection order because my husband said he wanted to come back home. The judge denied it back then. We had another court hearing yesterday. The judge asked me if I felt safe and I said yes. I told him that my husband has PTSD and is on medication for it and that as long as he is stable on his meds everything should be ok. Well just hours after the judge drops the restraining order my husband told me that he was not going to come home that night. I was heartbroken and when I said that he went off on me telling me I'm a ***** ing bitch and that he wont be coming home at all if I don't stop being such a bitch and that it's all my fault that he's acting like an ass... I seen him for a few min after that and he said that he would think about coming over and call me after work so we could talk. That's the last time I heard of him. No phone call, no msg, nothing. I'm no longer sure I want him to move back home. I'm not even sure it's a good idea for us to be in touch at this point. The things he said yesterday are the same things that he told me over and over again during the past year. I'm not sure if he just had a really bad day for whatever reason or if he didn't take his meds but right now I'm really afraid that the verbal abuse might start all over again. I love him and I don't want to lose him but I can't put myself and my kids through this again. Should I give him another chance or tell him to stay gone until he's gotten help? He started a 4 week domestic violence parenting care class last week so maybe that'll help. He says I'm over dramatic. I feel like he has no clue what he's put me through. He says he can't remember most of the things that he's put me and my kids through so he acts like it never ha