My Confession ~ I have had the boxing gloves on with GOD pretty much my whole life. I stopped dancing in the ring with GOD after he took my husband more than a decade ago. I hear GOD is Almighty and Just. I find nothing just about watching your mother get beaten, being beaten as a child, watching your spouse battle two bouts of cancer only to lose, to witness the suffering of a mother losing a child, to see a child starved for the attention of a dying parent, to lose 2 siblings to drugs and alcohol, to see people going hungry in the world, to see religious wars in the name of GOD etc...many atrocities to list. I've been hypnotized and mesmorized by what my eyes have seen. Science, Evolution and civilization just began to make more sense to me the older I got.

Sure I felt better about myself when I attended church many moons ago. I manage to get that same feeling from doing a good unselfish deed. something greater than me. I no longer believe in Heaven or Hell. I believe in human compassion to lift another from the depths of their struggle even when you have nothing left to give. To be kind to others even when you dont understand their way of being. To volunteer and give to charity whether monatary or physically when one is able.

But I dont fear GOD. If a GOD is something to fear, why would I choose to believe in such? If I am to believe in a GOD. I wish him or her to be comforting, forgiving, compassionate, merciful, all loving. And these are not things I fear but would worship. Instead this world made by GOD includes, hunger, suffering, heinous crimes, torture, hate etc...all acts of a human species that fears an invisible GOD. WHY! Somebody please tell me why when I feel the answers are in our hands. We the people are the GODS of compassion to help thy neighbor. But we are a greedy species. And most of us will break the Commandments we preach and try live by for personal gain. Sins? Or Human Nature.