Hi counselors,dnt mind my writ up is scrawled,quickly using a friend's facilitypls dis mes is killin me.on my way to sch in my final yr i met hm he insistd he help me wit my loads becos dey were heavy, den we exchangd phn contact.i got to knw he is germany basd he only cam to complet a prject,after 6mnths of constant comunicatn he askd me 4 relatnshp,i told my childhod adviser she agred after anoda 6mths he kept caln tryn to convinc ha,nd she advisd he comes often 2 c me.i ws 21 den,its 3yrs nw.we alys caln,chatn,bt we ve neva sen afta den.i met hs family,dey love me.he askd i come ova to germany sinc he cudnt come down during my 23rd birthda bt my dad nd adviser didnt aprove it. dat dey dnt knw hm 2 wel.i luv hm, ve neva lovd any1 b4 hm.i got entagled wit dis nigerian based guy 8mnts ago,he luvs me i neva went throu my adviser bcos she ll neva aprv it bcos 1 of ha rules is 2 men at a tym is immorality.bt i heard and ve seen guys abrod end up marryn white grl nd dnt want to b a victim. My new guy askd me to put an end to my previous relatnsp bt i didnt want to hurt smbody i luv.My nigerian guy sugest we ve sex bt i refused dat til we maried so he cam around to c my dad whom i told my adviser knws hm already bt i lied,i broke my adviser rule of integrity,she hate liers.my dad ll neva acept hm if he knw my adviser hasnt scrutinize hm.bt my guy cares enuf to marry me.am in mes nw my germany bsd guy wants to com hom,he proposed we get married and i already said he is gone.i dnt knw wher to start from.i feel lik a heartles soul.i jst ll hurt smbody,bt my first luv pleases me more bt my family already aceptd my oda guy nd shd i tel my 1st luv i brok my rules of faithfulnes wen he cm am scard it wud leak,he jst wont beliv i cud do this