Love you all my pals,
my confession goes this way,
right now i feel so remorseful and sober for myself,
am a model & a social lady that is always so fastinated to guys,
but never had feelings for guys,due to my mum's past,
it came a point friends and folks pleading,arrassing & advising me to try give someone chance in my life,and come to think of it,many of my mates all have two/three kids,
there is this guy my bossom friend has being pleading with me to date,
with all the assaults from all,i decided dating this guy my best friend has wanted me to date long ago,because he also made lots of effort and am so sure he must had pleading with my friend to talk with me on his behalf,
we started as normal,but before i accepted him,
i asked what exactly he wanted from me and also asked if he has anyone in his life before me,and hope he is not part of those that bet with friends just to get me,
he said no,because there was certain time some friends had a bet,but it all fail them and it was leaked,me asking him this questions,because i know the kind of person i am,too emotional,more reason why i found it difficult given a guy place in my heart,i believed this guy would be what my best friend said he was,because my best friend knows him so well,
i decided dating him due to the fact that i learnt he was a very good christian and real gent,
not knowing all was pretense,
the first time this guy would have sex with me,it was so much painful and blood came out of me and that very moment i started weeping,being the first time since lots of guys have being talking to me,
to my greatest surprise this gy too started crying even as a big boy,
i was shocked because i never expected a big guy as such to cry,he went on his kneels and started pleading with me that he is much sorry,i was thinking he was being sorry for defiling me,then he said to me it so much rare to found a grown up lady me being that way,even with all my beauty,that he is so much in a state of chaos,because he is married,but anyone that isn't much close to him,wouldn't know he is,because his wife lives abroad and she often comes once in 2months or he goes to meet her,but my beauty can't let him be and that all he has heard about me attracted him to me,that he wouldn't mind having me as his second wife because he loves me so much,but this guy has often heard me say,i can't follow a married man nor a divorcey not to talk of being a second wife,
when he told me all this i fainted and he was so intimidated,rushed to hospital,there i found myself,and he also told me my friend knew he was married,
but they both conspired,
my love once,what do you think i should do in this situation,because i feel so humiliated, jilted and betrayed,haven't being myself.