If a habit is controlling you, you will not enjoy the best that God offers you. Don't make excuses for bondage's that seem to have a hold on you. Denial and excuses will keep you from enjoying your life.!
Life is really tough enough on its own, with you walking with someone who disagree with you on many issues. such a relationship will not stand the test of time.!
All our days in life are promissory. It might come or not. The best way is to live each day, As your very last and keep off from unworthy things in this universe.!