i miss you
Mar. 24th 05:51 PM 2011
A love like ours shall not be tested for if it is our love stands strong. I have been tested my whole life by others even God. With every test there are consequences an an outcome. This is my Vow to you: I want to be there when you awake and hold you in your sleep, if you heart feels pain I want to make if all better. I would walk to the ends of the earth for you because I know if my heart you'd do the same, our love used to shine like a start but lately has been not the same. There is nothing I wouldn't do to hold on to our love, please believe in us and know we can get through whatever God or anyone throws at us. I know I am far from perfect but I am human, I know I get upset and say things I do not mean but I feel like I must speak of bottle up all the pain inside but I cannot.I cry tears of sadness because I feel lie you have given up, i pray you haven't for if you do it will break what's left of my heart. I do wish you happiness and I try to bring you that I wish I could give you the world but I cannot. I can gave you my heart, I have told you thing n other person knows because I trust you, I miss you when you gone but I know you will be back and your worth waiting for. Your the most amazing man I have ever met and I love you with all of my heart. I need you like the Sun needs the Moon, you are my strength, you have made me an even stronger minded woman, than you for you guidance. When I look at you i see an honest, loving, caring man wit a big heart but also with a guarded heart.I have been to hell and back, for only being 29 years old. I have always kept my heart guarded and got hurt over and over again. Then I met you, yes my defenses we up at the same time i could feel them falling down with every day we spend together. I have had a tough life, yes, the past is the past. You are my future. I wish there are words I could put my feelings into words I wish I could tell you EVERYTHING the fact, is I don't even remember a lot of my own life. I think my brain has blocked out a lot of it, i remember bits and pieces, and i will tell you anything you want to know if i can remember. I don't like to go back in time it's painful. A lot of it I can talk about today but alot of it only YOU know...
I could look people in the eyes and tell them that I am ok, when really, I feel like I am dying inside. I got good at it finally I mastered it. Anyways, God sent me an angel over 2 years ago, she rescued me I have always guarded my heart, I have been through it all and I know that I have to always keep my guards up. I have been in love twice I have been in true love once. I have worn a mask my whole life, then I thought that my life was over, when i lost my parent and my lovely brother, but i can vow that it's not over with you.....
THANKS
I MISS YOU & I LOVE YOU
BYE FOR NOW
