Am writin dis straight frm my heart.
We lived in kano all our lives n things were going on fine untill my dad's business began 2 slide. My mum den opened a beer parlor cos my dad left us 2 d village. 2 of my younger brodas n i hv helped my mum in her biz,den i was in sch (uni) n i neva looked forward 2 going home 4 hols cos my holidays were spent servin people. D worst is dat as a gal aged 20, men (costomers) always come afta me n it really pisses me off cos dey tink dat cos am servin in a beer parlor den am a whore. Somtyms i lock mysef in d toilet n cry my eyes out. We were makin fast money,bills were paid in time,pocket money was nt a problm, infact within 2yrs in d biz my mum bought a car. 2mnths after she bought d car, boko haram threw bomb in our neighborhood (sabon gari) n most of d affected places were beer parlor. Den our biz began 2 dwindle,my mum just woke up 1 morning n sed we were leavin kano 2 asaba. No plan,we hv neva been 2 asaba b4 nt evn her. We d grown up kids told her 2 take it easy n plan it 1st bt she wudn't listen. Our house rent dere in k-town was 70k 4 2 rooms a yr n she paid 250k 4 3 rooms flat per yr in asaba,i told her its a huge diff dat we hv 2 plan it well so dat we dnt get stucked cos of house rent somday,she started barking dat 'am pessimistic like my father,i dnt like seein mysef do big tins' she evn reported me 2 my uncle. I kept quiet. We arrived @ asaba,2 find a shop was wahala, i opend my mouth again,i told my mum, 'lets drive round town @ nite,see wat nite life is like here,den enroll my younger 1s in2 sch' she sed dnt worry,let me get a shop 1st den we wud look 4 sch. Hmmm we stayed @ hom 4 2mnths,got a shop dey charge 240k per yr while in kano we paid 30k per yr. Tinking dat probably wen we start off tins wud settle,notin has happend. Nite life here is zero. We open by 10am n close 11pm latest,yet we marely make 10k,wereas in kano we open by 5pm-11pm n make close 2 100k. rite now my mum is kinda regrettin everytin,we d kids (especially me) r sufferin, no food,no x-mas clothes 4 my siblins, no money 4 sch fees come january. Wat we do now is sell n eat. People here r unfriendly, men here want 2 bed every new gal dis is d particular 1 dat affects me cos 97% of dem r married!
Wat more can i say? My world is crashin,i hv prayed,read bible, infact i hv tried 2 do right by God. Somtyms i feel like shoutin on my mum,blamin her 4 her fast n careless choice. I feel like blamin my dad 4 forgettin his role as a fada ( we live almost like fadaless kids).i dnt knw, i just need couselling or somtin,i need 2 b happy,i tink 2 much dese days as if am 30. I need directions. tnx