During ma servc year so many guys kept makin mi feel they cudnt wait 4 mi to round u servc so I cud get married to them. I bcame scared bt I had to make a choice out of all dat @list met ma kindoff guy. Dis guy I chose kept makin mi feel I wasn't doin enof cos he wnted mi to spend 9ts in his hs, cook, hv sex wit him infct do all a marid lady shd do. Bt I had ma reservations siince we whr in d same town. I did ma bst honestly . But he seemed a player . I came2 his hx n noticed a female slipers n pant in his wardro, wen I asked him he sed I ask a lot of Q. Dats not all I had a drim dat he was only usin mi n dat I shd run. I wasn't too convinced abt dis drim sims all our dscussion centerd on marriage afta I rounded up service. I ran to his hx 4 him to clear tins up but rushed out wen he got a cal dat his mechanic was don wit his car. He left mi alone in de hx n sed he wudnt take long...... I was waitin , I decided2 use survey de room n ma eyes got a sealed envelop wen I opened it ma so called "guy" had gon to register his name wit anoda woman plannin a weddin I know nth about : ma drim was convinced. In no short time he came oh baby I'm sori I kept u waitin : did u miss mi ;jeeeeeez c actor. I pretende like I had sin nth . We got talkin n I asked him if he was seein any1 els he sed no, all he wants is mi n bla bla bla bla . Wen I confrontd him to xplain de envelop he was shocked n surprizd went on his kneels n strtd begin sayin is not like he luvs d gal but the family recomnded ha. My vex is he neva told mi , made mi loose oda posible chance , wsted ma tym, gave the bst I cud n comin to tell mi dat trashhhhhh. I left de hx in tears . Hw do I get those oda guys to make thm look@ mi , hw do I strt afresh again, I'm pissed and fed up......some pple can b so mean n hrtless. I pray I find tru luv to wipe oF old memories quik cos I can't eat , slip or tink ryt . Evrytin makes mi angry ! Som1 pls help I neva tot dis wud EVA com ma way.