Help! HElp!! Help!!! Am Hunted By the Past

Ok, i was a little boy with no idea of what was happening to me. when i was about 5yrs old, there is this Girl who my mum will always take me to their house to stay whenever she's going out, when she's gone this girl will always have sex with me becoz she was older then me with about 8-9 yrs and i thinkin it was jst fun also liked it untill i left that area to stay with my anuty and it was allover for me and her.

but the thing now is that now that i'm mature i can't talk 2 a girl becos it scares me very much but when i asked and made much research on my self i discovered that i now have phycological prob owing to that experience i had with that girl @ a very tender age and the solution was to confront her face 2 face or have a girl who can help me reframe my mind when it comes to women eva since i dicovered that it made me deframed in mind i have hated every young Girl or lady around me even when i try to be strong a