Hello guyz...i really need help..and i know this would be long, but i want for you guyz to take your time and read..help a sister out...
its about my ex, we dated for three years before we parted..he loved to me to death, but then i didn't love him..but i was happy i was with him..the first few months we started dating, he showed me a sign of violence..and that was only because i made me do so...i have way too many male friends..some of them wanted to date me..some of them wanted to sleep with me..some of them i was flirting with...so i really never blamed my ex for being voilent with me..because i was a complete flirt...but i never had sex with any of these men then...so our relationship was good..we were inseprable..he could die for me..he has gone hungry..borrowed money just to support me so many times..he gave me everything and anything i ever wanted...he treated me like a queen sometime...that man cried for me several nights...almost commited suicide because of me...but we always fought..he gets jealous and when he does, he beats me...he takes away my phone..and after sometime he would come beg me...so the three years we were together, it has always been drama...we fight, he beats me, i fight back, we both ended up in hospital because..he beat me and then i stab him with a knive...before him i was very gentle..but when he started beating me out of jealousy...i became a monster..i would slap him, and do whatever do him..then we fight every single time..we make up..but he did love me...he sacrificed a lot for me...but then i cheated on him, and told him to move on..i told him he was obssessed with me..even at that he forgave me...and i cheated on him with someone else..he still took me back..he never gave up on me..bt he still beats me..until he finally surmon courage to leave me..after three month he broke up with me..he came bck and started begging me..and i said no...so now weve been apart for over a year...but my friends and his friends said we need to get back together..hes still single because he said i hurt him and he can never love again...so i spoke to him today..and i cried and apologized for everything i did to him, and told him i dont knw why i did all i did..but i cried and begged for his forgiveness..cos he didnt deserve it..yes i was wicked..stubborn,,and i was a cheater....but i have been dating another man for 9 months now..and we getting married in two weeks...yes me and him argue a lot..but no physical violence...we jstr argue...so i dont what to do...my ex really loved me with his life..and talkin to him today he said he has forgiven me..and from the way he sounds..i know he still sincerely love me..and i feel like i made a mistake..by letting him go..now i'm confused...help me please....i'm a changed person now...am gettin married in few weeks..but i sincerely hope i'm not making a mistake....