Pals though i'm 22yrs and still have a long way to go in life, I remember that fateful day I was with a girl who is 3yrs older than me at a secret place (dark area) at night though we are close friends, she says that she loves me and I asked her how am sure that she does, and immediately she started kissing me and I was moved to join her. Pals through out that night I could'nt sleep I was disturbed this is just she A kiss what if its was sex maybe I would has killed myself because I was a virgin and still a virgin, maybe I won't have forgiving myself.Today I was just imagining when ll I meet my jewel, when ll I have intimacy with a woman, is it going to be my wife ? How ll she looks like.All my friends has all gotten their gfs i'm the only one left . They see me has someone that is odd because I can't handle Educaction and a relationship together like them.