i really love dis section of nijapals, well mine is soo complex, i fell in love with my childhood friend, whn she was in ss1 den i had just finish my ssce, family were matured to deal with us as per our age, with advice, i meant no harm, both families were transferd to different states and she wrote me saying its over den we were young i understood everything. i never got her off my mind, 3yrs later, den i was in d uni, i went to look for her she was in d uni also, we met and i told her i needed her back and she said she was gonna think of it, she did told me yes again and i was happy that i have found my lost love,, i later travelled to d uk to further my education and still kept in touch, but her ex hv refused to leave her alon, wht pains memore is dat i never had any affair outside bcos it will take my attention from her i was so sincere to her but of resent,her constant touch with her ex is causing so much pain btwn us and its at a cross road, i really love her but she is stobborn to stop the contact, and d boy promised to break us up and she is gvn him room to to dat. i am always at sea and cnt control from d ship, i dont need a saint as a wife, no one is perfect. it hurts me dat wht i hv struggled to build she is givn him room to break, she always say dey are just friend but her friend told me she still sleeps with him, as a mariner, we ar trained not to bliv wh we hear from people cos out of frustration u can jump into d ocean, woman cant make me kill myslf, how do i let her know i really love her and wanan spend my life with her.